Ever feel like you're being used? Lately I feel like that, I feel that my unconditional love just isn't enough.
A few months ago I got the wonderful news that I'm going to be a grandma. Great news for some, great news for me if it would happen to have been a different child. No! It's my only daughter, the one is only 17. Now the news has been told, the tears have been cried, the talks have been given about the baby being the most important thing now, and of course finishing High School. I faced it and even announced it so that it would be out in the open and we could get on with the idea of having a grand-baby/child after we thought we were through raising our own. Now I am to the point of where did I go wrong? What could I have done that possibly gave her this notion that I wanted her to give birth to the baby sister that she always wanted?
Now she's upset with me because I don't like her boyfriend. I've never been given the chance to like him. She's never really said a nice thing about him, they are together and she's sneaking around... then they are broken up after a big scene. Her father, well he's just that, her father that was never shown how to love and so he doesn't know how to show it back. He tries, but in so many ways they are so alike they hate each other most days. And yes you can love someone and hate them at the same time, one feeling might be slightly stronger than another at different times, but they can both exist. It's called ... Hell, who knows what it's called, it's called many different things for different people.
